Long rant-like thing
At the moment, nothing seems right. I can't really put my finger on it. Everything justs seems a little out of synch. It feels like I'm losing touch with everyone. I'll be OK, I've learned to rely on myself, but it's not fun. I have no idea what's given me such serious trust issues, but everytime I get to know someone, I get to the point where I'm pushing them away. I will not open myself up to anyone. It's not like any big event happened to me that made me scared of opening up, I've just never been able to tell people how I really feel. I'm so out of my element recently, because there's been so many problems with my "friends" that I can't give them advice on. Maybe if I actually knew more about the problems, I could. But these are things that people just decide to dump on me and expect me to fix. Sorry, guys, some things you gotta work out yourselves. I can't help if I don't have any background information, or if I don't know what the other person's like. I wish I could just read other peoples' minds and see what they thought. Sometimes I wish people would just say what they really think about me. It would make things less complicated. But at the same time I really wouldn't like that, because I don't think I can deal with criticism too well. But I really don't know. I'm so insecure about people. And forget romance. Nothing works. Everyone ends up breaking up. People get hurt so badly. I tend to think I'm better off by myself. Of course, I get lonely sometimes, but in the end I think I just need to be alone. I wish I could not be so unpredictable, and sometimes just plain mean, to people. I just don't know how to tell people what I feel. I don't know if they'd really care. Seems all anyone cares about is themselves.
Lately, I feel 
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