"It takes a lot of me, to get the nerve to tell you everything is OK. And what if I don't would you even care?"
Yesterday was a wondeful day. I was really happy. Today, everything's awful. Of course, I feel bad saying that, because it's not like something really bad happened to me or anything, but I just feel inadequate. It seems like everyone's better than me. I'm surrounded by perfect people, and quite honestly, I'm used to being the perfect one. I always do perfect on my progress reports, but I got this one and my History teacher wrote that I need to pay attention in class and that I need to prepare work on time. WHAT THE FUCK? I NEVER talk to people in his class, and I've given him everything on time. It's like, no matter what I do, I can't do well in his class. I knew I would hate it. Remember over the summer when I was trying to decide whether I would take this History and Lit or my same one from last year? I knew I should have stayed with Tanya and Laura. I hate my History teacher, and I'm pretty sure he doesn't like me. I really hate my Literature teacher, and I feel like I'm trapped in her class. It's like, if I don't talk to people I'll die of boredom. I just need to get out when I'm in there. It's make her angry or be extremely bored. I can't stand it. I don't want to get goddamn B's. I hate my teachers, almost all of them. I hate this year, I hate most of the people in my classes. I just wish it would be over. I can't take any more of this.
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Oh, by the way, my birthday's tommorow. It's not like it makes any difference. Only one person gave me a present. Very few people care. It's not like it'll be anything special. Ugh. I feel like a whiny bitch now.
Lately, I feel 
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