"M-I-C-K-E-Y M-O-U-S-E!"
Oh my god, I am SOOOOO hyper. Not really sure why. Just started watching tennis, and I kind of went crazy cheering on Andy Roddick. I have decided that although he is American, his name is to be said with some sort of English/Australian accent. It was fun. I went kinda crazy, like I said before, and was cheering on Roddick and saying things like, "Bjorkman can't step to Andy Roddick," with an English/Australian accent. Good times.
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Last night I could not sleep. I was flipping out about this coming school year and last school year. I was just having one of those moments where I want to smack myself because I am SO bad at saying what I want to say, and there's probably a lot I should have said to people that I didn't say. Plus I was just thinking how much I'll miss everyone next year. Richie's gonna still be gone, I'll never see Sasu because he'll be a senior and therefore not in my HR or advising class, Sam and Teddy and Chris and I had so much fun in our horrible history and lit classes being little brats but that's done. And without one of us, it's just not as fun, you know. I think it's much harder for me this summer than last because really, becoming a junior is a MUCH bigger deal than becoming a sophomore. I have to start thinking about COLLEGE! I have NO IDEA what I want to do with my life. None at all. I have no special skills or talents and I don't really like any one field enough to really want a career in it, and I can't even bare to think about college. And then I think ahead to the end of next year. Kristal is going to graduate, and so is Nikki!! Nikki is YOUNGER THAN ME. She CANNOT graduate. I have known her since 2nd grade. This is not cool at all. I just go into panic attack mode at the idea of growing up. I need to slow down, but it's not easy.
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This Andy Roddick obsession is reminding me rather intensely of when I became enthralled by Ernie Els. He sucked me into stupid golf. I only ever watch for him. But I guess tennis is kinda different. I love tennis. I used to love playing it so much, but I never do it anymore. I am kind of afraid to have to learn all over again. But it is really good for getting your anger out in a way stupid ping-pong isn't at all. I like to hit the ball hard. I guess I just wish I had stuck to something when I was little. Just so I'd have it now and not have to start over if I want to have something to do. Gymnastics, tennis, swimming, my parents let me quit it all, and I am glad they didn't force me to stay, but I really wish I hadn't quit, you know?
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I am in SUCH the oddest mood. Can't you tell? I've also been wishing I had lots of money and could drive and lived by myself so I could do what I want, but realistically, I don't want fame that obviously comes with money, I am afraid of the notion of driving, and I would be lonely by myself. So you know, it's a conundrum.
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Well, anyway, Andy Roddick rocks and he’s the best ever. And isn’t he dating Mandy Moore? I don’t know. If he is, good for him. I do wish he’d kept the visor though; the baseball cap isn’t anywhere near as fun as the visor.
Lately, I feel 
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