"And by now I know you better than you know yourself, and I know what you really need..."
Damn it. Here's the issue as I see it. I have about a total of one friend, and millions of acquaintances. But you know, acquaintances do not fill the holes. I don't have the ability to make new friends. It doesn't work for me. I'm stuck now, you see.
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I really, really, really am honestly worried for a bunch of my accquaintances today though. Good lord, do not let that obnoxious bitch hurt any of the three of them. Don't let the innocent ones be corrupted by "love." Just, I need to know what's really going on. I need to know if Sam likes Jess like Jess likes Sam. I need to know that Jess isn't going to do this year what she's done every single previous year. All she seems to do is get a new group of friends, then abandon them. I hope YY heard what she did to Maggie. But then again, she probably wouldn't care even if she heard it. In my experience people don't believe something about a person until they see it themself. I need to help everyone in the world, but I need to know first that you can't help other people until you learn to help yourself. And I just feel sick and stupid and abandoned. It feels like everyone's gone, "Oh, Abby, we don't need you anymore. We have someone else now." It's just a punch in the stomach, it leaves me sitting here, without the strength to do anything. And once again, I have lost grip with everyone I used to love so much, and I just want them back. I just want to go back in time and make things like they used to be.
Lately, I feel 
maggie - big-lauren - drea - the rabbit - nom - karin - katie - kitten-cat - priire - coru - menucca - sache - kirin - mara
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